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Plane Musings about Health and Life

I’m writing this on my phone while on a flight to Chicago. It’s almost scary how good I am at typing on this thing. We’re landing in an hour and I’m bored of reading Game of Thrones. Seems like as good of a time as any to write a blog post that’s, oh…2 months overdue?

We’re going to Pennsylvania to visit Dave’s family for Thanksgiving. And I have to approach this trip with some amount of trepidation because it marks the two year anniversary of when I got very sick and eventually became diagnosed with lupus. If you want to know the entire story, you’ll have to go back in time in this blog to read it. But here are the cliffs: had a cold, went to Pennsylvania for Thanksgiving, got sick with pneumonia, went home, got Scarlet fever, went to hospital, lupus diagnosis.

I spent most of my visit in bed sick with fever two years ago. At Thanksgiving dinner, I fell asleep while sitting with Dave’s parents on the couch. This was the first time I had ever met them, too! Talk about a bad first impression 😛 I’m happy to be visiting this week, but in a weird way I’m looking forward to it being over because in my mind, it will prove to me that I’m stronger than I was two years ago. Yes, I can go on a trip to visit my husband’s family and eat food and hang out with people like a normal human being!

As for my health, things seem to be going well. I feel infinitely better now that I’m off prednisone, and I usually have good energy and motivation. Of course I have some bad days where I’m inexplicably tired or exhausted, but they’re more rare than I would have thought. And since losing my hair last year and suffering liver toxicity, I’ve had no further complications from my medication.

With regards to my medication, however, I always have it in the back of my mind that I need to get off it. When I think about it too hard while taking it, I have a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach about the situation. I’ve always been that person who refused to take a Tylenol when I had a headache. I never took any medication ever. And yet here I am, taking these pills every day, pills that have warnings of them because they’re really bad for me. But they’re “necessary,” so I take them.

Are they necessary? I really don’t know. I’m pretty convinced that the pharmaceutical industry is a giant scam, but I’m too scared to cut myself off the meds cold turkey. I can’t describe to you how terrible it was in the month leading up to my diagnosis; I would do almost anything to avoid feeling that way again. So I keep taking the pills.

My acupuncturist is convinced that I don’t need them and has outright said, “If you trusted me, you would get off the drugs and I would show you how right I am.” When I tell my rheumatologist that I would like to get off them, she tells me that I can try to lower my dosage slowly, but I can’t do it all at once. So like the stupid gullible girl I am, I’ve been listening to my rheumatologist and cutting the dosage down slowly. Excruciatingly slowly. But I’ve enjoyed feeling better this year and I’m reluctant to give it up, even if it means I’m slowly killing myself with drugs. So I guess I’ll just keep going.

Anyway, that’s my long winded health update. Cliffs: I’m fine for now and have had no lupus complications this past year.

Life is busy as usual with Stack & Fade, DFS, and Twitch streaming. This coming week is going to be my first since August that I haven’t streamed at least four days, and it’s going to be weird! I definitely need the break, though. I’ve said it in the past but I’ll say it again: I didn’t realize how sick of a grind Twitch streaming is. Combine it with the website and DFS and it feels like I’m working all day every day with no break ever. I love all of it so much and I’m so happy to be doing it all. But yes, I need this break.

Where poker is concerned, I’ve been running really terribly since September. Not only that, games are very tough at the moment thanks to a high number of regs in the games at the moment. It’s really sucked, but I’m trying to hang tough and fight through it. It hasn’t all been bad, though. Here’s a video of me winning a $109 HU hyper MTT for the first time ever!

Thanks for reading. I’m gonna have to go back to the start of this post to reread it because to be honest, I have no clue what I said! Thanks for your company though, it’s been nice to take a break from my iPad grinding. And now, back to direwolves and dragons.

P.S. Regular viewers of my Twitch stream will be pleased to know that I heard several people ordering tomato juice during the beverage service.

$2500 Spin & Go win on PokerStars

I spun my biggest Spin & Go ever on stream last week!

I felt so lucky and happy to spin and win that $2,500. It was a tough game and I definitely had to have things go in my favor to win it! I feel extremely fortunate to spin my first 25x in my highest buy-in, as well. I had added $30s to my rotation because Spin traffic has been really slow during WCOOP, so I only had a 35%-ish chance to spin the big one at $100s! Talk about lucky.

Poker went badly last month and wasn’t going so great to start September, but I’m definitely on a mini upswing this past week. I hope it continues through until the end of the month! Twitch streaming has also been a bit up and down because of WCOOP. Overall I can’t complain, though. It’s been incredibly fun and rewarding, and my viewers are fantastic. If you watch my Twitch stream, thank you so much for your support! If you don’t but you would like to start, here’s my channel: twitch.tv/courtiebee.

Projects everywhere! Life is busy and awesome!

It’s been a while! I’ve been so busy with other things lately and, as a result my blog here has been sooo neglected. But SO much is happening right now. It’s so exciting!!!

The biggest thing I did recently was leave the $200 hyper heads-up division this past month. This was an extremely difficult decision for me and one that took me months to make.

I decided to leave mostly because of my Twitch stream. It’s not easy to stream heads-up because of the waiting times in between games (have to sit in lobbies and wait for people to sit). It’s also made more difficult by the fact that triers can sit me at any time while I’m in the lobbies. I like playing regs, but I don’t wish to play them live on stream. Not only is it ten times more difficult to play poker while streaming, I also don’t want the general public to know all my reg ranges.

For these reasons, I decided to leave. It was a very sad day for me, to be completely honest. I worked on my hyper HU game A LOT over the past year, and I had gotten infinitely better as a result. It was just time, though. I have new goals, and heads-up just wasn’t fitting in.

Most of the time I spend playing poker these days is on stream. I’m really loving Twitch! It’s fun to interact with people and it really motivates me to play longer hours. It is distracting and therefore it forces me to play around 50% of the tables I would normally play, but I really think it is worth it because I enjoy poker so much more this way. If you want to watch me play, you can find me at twitch.tv/courtiebee. I stream every Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday, as well as some Sundays.

courtiebee twitch

I will say that streaming live is a lot harder than I thought it would be. The number of mistakes I’ve made while live on Twitch is actually quite staggering, haha. And people are often VERY quick to jump on mistakes. For example, the other day I accidentally folded a straight flush draw to a flop jam. I got absolutely BERATED by one guy in chat for doing this. He told me couldn’t understand how I was ever in the $200 division and he couldn’t understand how I could possibly be a pro.

There’s a lot of reasons for making mistakes on stream. The main reason is that I am simply more distracted and much more likely to make careless mistakes. I’ve checked back straights on the river due to being distracted and not realizing I had the nuts. I’ve incorrectly said my opponent donk bet when he was, in fact, in position. In the case of the straight flush draw, I didn’t realize he had a straight draw and completely neglected to see half my outs.

Sometimes the mistakes are inexplicable. I’ll be chatting away, see my hand, know EXACTLY what I have, but still do something stupid. And then I’ll think about it later and say, wtf, why did I do that? I’ll also just simply run out of time to make decisions because I’m spending too much time talking. I’ve timed out of huge pocket pairs and top pair situations too many times to count.

The good thing is that my mistakes are getting fewer and that streaming is getting easier. Like all things that require practice, I know it’s just going to take time. The experienced Twitch streamers can all play tons of tables and chat with their viewers like it’s walk in the park. I hope that soon I will be there too!

I’ve been playing mostly spin & go’s on stream, although lately I’ve also been playing MTTs. I have work to do in both formats, since both games are slightly different from HU SnGs. Like streaming, slowly but surely I’ll get better!

Life is so busy because my husband and I also launched a DFS website! It’s called Stack & Fade and it’s all about news and community. We have a daily fantasy sports forum for discussions and we’re really hoping to build the best DFS community around! If you have any interest in daily fantasy sports or you want to learn about it, please visit the site and have a look.

I’m definitely going to start updating this blog on a more regular basis. I have a lot of stuff to do, including setting up more social media and my YouTube. But it’s all coming. I’m so excited!

P.S. I feel so much better this year. Infinitely better. I think I’m overdoing projects slightly because I feel like I have to make up for lost time. But that’s the thing: I don’t want to waste this time that I have feeling good. I’ve learned that life is precious, gotta gogogo while you can.

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